If ever you cherish... @ Thursday, April 08, 2010
It been quite a while i posted things.
It seem to be ytd that i'd a quarrel with dad.
The thought is still so intact in my thoughts.
Can i at least had a moment of flashing everything back ?
Back to the start when i once knew him ?
Back to where he ask me to be his girl ?
I'm once his girl.
I'm once someone silly who is being loved by him.
I'm once the important one in his heart.
I'm once the one he never leave his eye off me.
I'm once the one he'll be worried that he'll lost me.
I'm once his precious.
I'm once the one who he push me off from him.
I'm once the one who he hurt me so deep intact.
But yet i never know how to hate him.
But am i someone you will care now ?
To be frank, there isn't anymore feeling for him.
Thinking back, i was sms-ing with sweetheart last night.
Saying about she and joker.
And i told her how much i envious she and mad.
Because no matter how hurt they had gone through, for the least they can turn back for the one that they love and love them.
But i'm totally different.
There never a chance i'm being spared.
I don't even know why i'm saying so much about him now.
But i realize that it never easy to find a guy like him anymore.
He was so perfect for me once.
He was the first guy who can make me give in everything.
Is there a guy who can be like him ?
Fear of spicy food like how i does?
Habit of eating like how i does?
Wait for me to sleep even before him ?
Delete his past photo to stop me from thinking too much ?
To see from my face that what my mood is?
Cook noodles for me when i'm hungry in the middle of the night ?
Love cycling like how he does?
Force me to eat even i'm on diet?
Come all the way down to mac to accompany me even though how much he hate me to be there?
Bring me to eat all the food that i wanted everyday.
Accompany me to pasir ris though he hate going and was sick at that time being ?
Bought me my favourite durian puffs when i just said i feel like eating ?
Buy drink and prepare for me right after i finish smoking ?
Worried for me when i'm sucha a sotong riding bic on the road?
Massage for me when my back ache suddenly?
Hold my hand to overcome all my fear?
To understand me from my inside out?
Hug me like how he does ?
Kiss me like how he does?
Respect me like how he does?
I know it impossible to find a guy exactly like him.
No one to blame but myself, because not cherishing him is my fault.
Letting him go is also my fault.
I didn't know that even by not loving him now, i still miss him alot alot alot.
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