Oh well well well.

I have the right to be not alright because this is my life.
To ruin myself like fuck.
But everyone out there, because of him , i'll be fine.
Maybe everyone will wish to thank him for changing me that much.

I'm silly.
I'm stubborn.
But i'm still willing to wait for him.
I never wanted to be the one who end it when my feeling for him is still that deep intact.
But well, i feel that i'm lousy being a girlf.
Because i felt that i seem to mess up his life.
I seem to be a trouble to him.

What girlf say is right, if i was a lousy girlf what is he holding on?
But i never wanted to admit that it has to end so fast.
Because everything start off so fast.
And all i do is cry.
Crying and crying, even though i was the one who break off.
Crying since last night while waiting for him.
I didn't sleep, i didn't eat, didn't smoke but just crying.
And this time round, he didn't give in to me anymore.
My nonsense.
His harsh words.
But till the very last min on phone with him, i never thought of leaving.
But yet piecing everything together, maybe i'm not what he wanted at all.
I thought i can be strong not to cry once i'm out of house today.
Went to buy all my bros' thing.
Went to mac to eat and cheng hock treated me.
He the second guy who bought me mac wings.
But he isn't the guy i wish to be.
I cried while eating mac wing,end up i ate 2 and i swear w/o him, no more mac wing !
And when i receive the sms from jean and girlf, i cried like hell.
Everyone ask me what to do to stop my tears and make me smile!!!
I said " it'll only be him who can does wonder to me."
Make-up ruin like hell.
Imagine my shiny eyeliner and blue mascara ~
I never let myself so shag.
But i never understand that what is in his world that fear everyone to understand him.
Keep yourself away isn't protecting yourself from any hurt.
You said that i can rely on you, you'll be there for me always.
I open my heart to let you in.
I make you my everything.
But am i being let into your heart ?
Am i your everything ?
Will you be even worrying me?
Will you be even reading it ?

No one is at fault when it come to love.
It just the timing and is it the right one for you.

I still stand in my believe that i want you to be my last.
But i told myself, till the 18th if he didn't wanted to ask me stay, den i shall be a good girl.
To leave him and make myself disappear.
The love for him will not fade even though i leave.

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♥YuLing♥
Every 11th of august, age-ing.
Always having my Beloved Girlfs holding on me.
The stubborness and sillyness.

She have to be strong, to go through all the ups and downs in her life.
It a mistake that her life had cross pass with that kind of guys.
But she'll never fall harder than before.