Never manage to be on phone with him last night.
When i'd the courage to call, but yet is this fate?
Fate that let us apart.
Fate that will never let us meet anymore?

I know it my thinking and choice, but did anyone know how difficult to change?

I used to cried when he was on camp duty when i'm all alone in his room at night.
That is how much i miss him, and it the 3rd night without him back den.
But at least, i can still hear his voice.
At least i knew, once the sun shines, once i open my eye, all i can see will be him.
I fill my life with his.
But it terrible now.
It the 5th day since we broke off.
It the 7th day since we ever seen each other.
Will you be missing me like how i do ? );
Early morning waking up to be emo-ing.

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It 4.44pm.
Reunion dinner time is nearby.
Steamboat as usual for normal family ~
Well, i shall be sitting alone in the house crying );
All along am i pretending not to get the fact right ?
When did i ever does that?
It when the love that i wanted that much to be back.
But will it?

My dad is such an asshole.
I thought he would at least make me felt better to bring me out for dinner.
But yet until now, nothing.
Are you my dad?
Do i deserve such treatment from you ?
Everything is just making me feel worst.. worst worst.
I don't wish to cry infront of my dad to make him feel that i'm really inneed of everyone there for me.
I believe that i'm strong, but am i ?

I didn't know what to do now other than thinking.
But can you at least tell me that you still love me ?
I'm thinking and asking for too much.
There no more reason to meet anymore ):

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♥YuLing♥
Every 11th of august, age-ing.
Always having my Beloved Girlfs holding on me.
The stubborness and sillyness.

She have to be strong, to go through all the ups and downs in her life.
It a mistake that her life had cross pass with that kind of guys.
But she'll never fall harder than before.