I get to know the reality.

You're never getting any better!
Fight back and prove you can, but it alway time we ppl need in.

I'm wondering after this whole night of awake though i'm seriously tired.
It 6 am in the morning when i need to wake up for work at 10.

I never strive so hard for someone before.
Sweetheart, you're the first to make me actually willing after 3yr to start studies.
You're just like the one exactly like who i am in the past.
In my eye, i saw the past of me.
Hate to say that but i regretted alot.

Sweetheart :
Every human beings have their fear. But to overcome it, it ain't rush.
Pushing yourself over ain't doing any good for yourself.
I can't find any heart in you for studies currently right now.
Not to ask you not to study , but you should arrange and pack your mind and thoughts.
Another 2 yr down the road and it ain't easy at all, can you endure all the nasty words coming out from ppl mouth ?
Can you even pass yourself ?
I'm once like you but yet thinking back it silly.
Cuz nothing is too late to realise as long as you know your mistake and amend it.
Time is forever not enough, nothing is forever but knowledge is what we got for the rest of our life.
Don't stress yourself out, think what is really good for you.
Look from another side of the view, some words are meant to be hurtful but year down the road, you'll felt that they're right.
Remember i'll alway be here to guide you through the fears ! (:


Serene girlf:
Girlf , i didn't know what you're going through currently.
But you seem to be avoiding everyone including me and gaga.
Don't keep yourself away.
But you make me felt that ever since after andy incident, we're drifting.
I can't blame it for your mindset but i hope that you can really understand.
And my phone is alway a call away, cry out loud if you're really tired.
Sometimes a cry can make yourself feel much much better.

Andy :
I didn't expect to see you at mac just now.
When it doesn't meant to be in this way.
Maybe i don't know you well but all along you'll never ride pass mac if there nothing.
Thank for starting the conversation with me.
I don't know does you still felt anything for me anymore, but i just wanted you to know something.
I wish to carry on my life without you anymore.
I make such a big effort everyday and yet i always stop whenever you appear.
I didn't mean that you shouldn't appear, it just so sudden.
When i never thought of seeing you at all.
And i miss you truely though i'll still tears but yet not the love anymore.
Just the misses of your goods.
Thank for all the sweet memories.
At least you let me know that there was once that i can actually get what i wants.
I know that you won't be possibly reading it, i didn't wanted to sms you.
Just felt like writing all my thoughts out.
Asking you to be back to my side and all this is ridiculous now, it mean nothing at all to you alr.
The freedom that you want, i gave but yet why aren't you feeling happy?
Or am i still disturbing you ?
I let go is because i want you to be happy.
I hate to see you together with her, but it the choice you made and i hope it right.
I can't be the one who give you happiness and smile, i hope simin can be the one to.
And if i'm a threat toward simin, why not ? Laugh !
Because we human beings will only cherish when we feel like we're gonna lose it.
Be happy alright ! (:
Lastly, i really miss you alot !

tatas ~

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♥YuLing♥
Every 11th of august, age-ing.
Always having my Beloved Girlfs holding on me.
The stubborness and sillyness.

She have to be strong, to go through all the ups and downs in her life.
It a mistake that her life had cross pass with that kind of guys.
But she'll never fall harder than before.