I don't feel like going home.
But i don't feel like being left alone.
I thought having him in my world will be a happiest thing because i won't be alone anymore.
How much he was nice to me is what i never had ever since i was small.
I thought when we compromise, to let everyone know.
I thought you'll be the last though you're not my first.
I never wanted to hide anything from you.
Never wanted to control you.
Because my love isn't selfish.
I know all along i'm being unreasonable.
But i didn't really realise, my love for you'll really tired you out ?
You said i could rely on you, you said i'm important to you.
But the feeling toward me, is it love that really occur or it just a moment of rush ?

Baby, do you really know what you actually want from the start?
Did you really want me to be your last when you aren't even sure of it ?
Am i really important to you ?
Or without me, you'll be happier?
Without me, you can do what you want without worrying ?
Without me, there won't be any nagging that you don't like.

I don't wish that i'm someone who bring ppl happiness away.
I ain't that kind of girl.
I ain't that kind who really can pretend as nothing, who can giv up all my freedom because of love.
But it you, baby, who make me realise that i thought you can be my everything.
I never tolerate any rumor.
I'm unreasonable because i quarrel over rumor.
I ain't that kind of girl who can wait and wait for a call, a promise that you'll come or even wait for you to wake up.
but it just you baby who i only wish to do every single things for you.
Is not that i'm not confident at all.
But baby it you who didn't know what you want from the start.

When i accept you, i put my whole heart into loving you.
I let my whole self to rely on you.
But did you ever let me enter your world?
Or did you ever enter my heart to really feel the unstable feeling i'm going through.
It never you who make me tears.
It just that whatever i did, i'm just lousy.

I'm a lousy girlf who never understand that my boyf is tired.
i'm a lousy girlf who never know what my boyf wanted.
I cannot give him anything when he can giv me.
Am i still the girl you would want to continue with ?
But you're the one i wish to hold on not because of anything but because i'm really loving you.

I don't know will you read.
But if you choose to let go in the end, don't worry for me.
Because you made the choice to part your life with mine.
7.35p.m

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♥YuLing♥
Every 11th of august, age-ing.
Always having my Beloved Girlfs holding on me.
The stubborness and sillyness.

She have to be strong, to go through all the ups and downs in her life.
It a mistake that her life had cross pass with that kind of guys.
But she'll never fall harder than before.