Early in the morning, suspose to be in training -.-
And here i'm rotting at home.
Or maybe tuning my feeling slightly better.

Well, we ended off peacefully.
No matter how much i wanted him to stay, he insisted in letting go.
I'm not till the extend of stupid in making both suffer, because i wish him to be happy.
So i'll respect whatever choice he choose to make.
Because once he is firm with it, i can do nothing to change.
As long as if the ending will let him be happier, why not ?
Being together, i can't give him anything.
But now, that the least i can do when he want me to go.
I could nvr be strong in arguing towards the one i love so much and trust.
Telling me to live my own life, yet forgetting he is my everything now.
And it seem like another obstacle for me to overcome seriously if i ever wanted to begin another r/s.
Other past seem to be easily overcome, the love doesn't last from the guy and the care is never like what he give me now.
So it should be really ... difficult.
And the fear of never knowing will that guy be the right one for me.

Because of him;
Well, difficult to believe, but it true that he changes me alot.
Maybe he the first guy that is so mature in my past r/s.
He the one who scold me for not studying, rewards me for my cleverness.
He'll be the path of light leading me out of my lifeless way.
But yet i'm lost from the path of his.
Goodbye, my love.

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Edited ;

Thank girlf for being there the whole morning for me.
I don't know how much i tears.
I don't know how much i spend myself to get thing out of the way to stop tears.
But using com watching show, interval of tears still comes.
How hurt could the pain be when it just 23day together.
Girlf been entertaining me in fb !
And i saw your post !
PASTA SHIT !
Laugh !
But well, ppl are keep me accompanied chatting all the way to stop me from thinking.
But yet my mind turn around back to where i'm stuck at.
Fuck myself.

I wish to laugh from the inside out.
Not from the outside.


Well, sudden pain.
This timing , he should be home online.
And right to FB, i saw the status of ours.
Well, tears is unbearable.
Fuck myself for being such a cry baby !
I'm just a childish kid who never grow up ! );

Girlf asked did i sms him at all?
I didn't.
Because being together, i'm alr that irritating to keep sms.
And now, i got no rights at all to sms anymore.
Well, i should let him go because he got the every rights to go too.
Argh.
Just another emo-ing time-.-
I hate it.
But i didn't choose it.

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♥YuLing♥
Every 11th of august, age-ing.
Always having my Beloved Girlfs holding on me.
The stubborness and sillyness.

She have to be strong, to go through all the ups and downs in her life.
It a mistake that her life had cross pass with that kind of guys.
But she'll never fall harder than before.