If ever you cherish... @ Thursday, November 19, 2009
Well well well ~
The weather is so dam coold ~
Hadn't been in a very good mood.
Haven't been having a goood sleep.
What am i thinking?
What am i expecting?
What hope am i carrying on with myself?
Sunday,
Went family outing with him.
i cried like mad when i was on cab home.
The familiar sound, familiar person, but the unfamiliar words.
Finally, all doubts is clear.
Understanding how much it worth.
I hate to finalise my own answer but yet tears is just rushing down all the way.
Finally, the confession is out.
But yet there no reply.
I thought we won't have to meet, but he treat it like nothing, asking me out.
I wonder, am i even a somebody in your eyes?
Will you ever think of me or even in bad mood after knowing my feel toward you.
Is your don't know a hope on for me?
Or you didn't wanna to hurt me at all !
Is the concern from you the past few week is out of just caring or you mean it ?
All along you hate ppl for making me tears but yet now you're the one.
Sunday when i got to reach my house downstair, i sat there crying.
Or even not i cried all the way till my blk and burst out loudly.
I wenting drinking till wee in the morning.
I cried till breakfast time is over.
I cried till the sun was in the mid and finally fell asleep.
not more tha 4 hr, i woke up losing my soul.
Monday and tues is still worst for me.
Till ytd, bazhang ask me out for a drink ~
I bought 4 bottles of heni.
And end up finishing 2 by my own when bz and her friend each one.
If i'll be drunk, i won't be suffering so much.
At least i got to sleep.
At least i won't go on hunger.
But after the drink, i told mysef, even i got to tears, it won't be going worst.
All along telling myself that love isn't something i shall fall off.
So a small reminder is really something that make it wonders.
Shortly one month is more than enough.
Even thinking of how hurtful it is now, but i'll miss the way you treat me (:
We aren't suitable for each other.
Because everything just went off its way.
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