A day of sadness.
I never wonder that i can feel so sad.
It like someone died that mean alot to me.

My tear keep dropping last night.
I cried like for 4 hr ?
I dunno, i only rmb i cried till i slept.
But for that 2 hr i was all alone outside of that place.
That place doesnt seem like a home.
It seem like a place for living dead.
I really dunno how to live with someone like my dad anymore.

He can treat that he didnt knw that i was sick.
And treat that nothing happen.
You didn't wanna pay but yet a concern didn't even come.
Stingy with ur money and ur concern.
Fk you la! Stop being a dad den.
You fking dun have the rights to be a dad.
You dun suit to be it !

I thought i can bear with the pain and think of a way.
But i woke up early in the morning at 7 cuz of the pain.
And i realise it hurt and swollen more worse that ytd.
And that mean my condition really cant drag, the surgery had to be done soon.
But where to find so much cash in a short moment.

Stupid thought appear once again, i feel like giving up everything.
Is it that when we strive we will get happiness?
Is it that happiness come with consequence?
All i know, i was hurt.
A family that i will never find warmth and love in it.
A person like me who weak yet refuse to rely on ppl.
How long can i go further?


I hope that he'll be by my side, at least for the very moment, i'll be alright.

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♥YuLing♥
Every 11th of august, age-ing.
Always having my Beloved Girlfs holding on me.
The stubborness and sillyness.

She have to be strong, to go through all the ups and downs in her life.
It a mistake that her life had cross pass with that kind of guys.
But she'll never fall harder than before.