If ever you cherish... @ Saturday, November 25, 2006
Back to blogging again.Fuck sia. I lost all my songs in my mp3.Reformat and dl all songs again.Stupid!Yesterday was updating while chatting with yingting.What she say and wrote in her blog is right larh.But we girls always say we won't be foolish all that end up also doing the same thing.I'm still waiting with the only hope that what i say of him is not true .I know that hurting myself more but what can i do?First time i never think of giving up so easily.Why must it always boys who hurt us?!? We girls also can toy with their feelings=x But must see which kind of boy larh.Like what i told yingting,To me, i can rely on no one.MOney is the most reliable things on earth.All i need is money =) Sometime maybe real long never been in relationship i'm sure that i have forgotten how to commit to it.I feel like killing myself soon. Why am i always a failure.?All i want is my brother to be studying fine. I don't want let others to look down on him.. I give him freedom he misuse it.Now say till i very what. What the fuck larh !?!I care for him then like that what.He think i too free to find trouble for myself is it ?I more than enough stresssI don't want him to regret like what i'm now.Stupid ivor, make me worry for the whole night.Don't think anywhere larh.I treat him as my big brother...that why i worry.And not even a call to tell me is he fine le ma?What am i to him ?I won't say anything anymore.I really damn angry larh.Make me worry liao den disappeared like that. FUCK OFF!!MAn really do suck larh! My house got two useless one !Still have to work later.Kelly is right larh.I can't forever be with caren and pohseng ma.I will feel extra or even envious them but hais.I feel as though i and caren is drifting and That's true !Man are simply jerk.I just don't understand why caren want to hold on to this tiring relationship Toturing herself is that very good ?I know i have no rights to say as i was also a failure in it.But i don't want her to suffer even more after it.
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